So two weeks ago, I have been participating in this voluenteer thing, where I go out with a group (a church, I am far from religious but I can stand if for the greater good) and spend time, give food and comfort/support to the homeless, helpless, hungry, seriously unemployed and disabled. We travled to five different locations. During the night I met some really increadible people. This group go out Tuesday nights, fortnightly (though I wish it was weekly). Anyways, the excitement and happiness I saw in their eyes when the car drove up to each location. One location was a women’s shelter, it really got to me when I saw the children, However, the children were so young they did not know better. Their bright big smiles really made me think. Overall the night was a real eye-opener and so rewarding and fulfilling, I can’t think of any ocassion where someone was so greateful for me to spend time with them.
So the two weeks passed and last night I headed out to the church where everyone meets and helps prepares the meals. Anyways, I arrive, and there is only one other person. The two of use start getting everything ready (while we wait for the others, as there is a rule where we cannot go out in 2 people or less due to safety) as the time goes by no one shows up. They do not even bother to contact the organiser (the Paster). I am just so disapointed in people, it is for a few hours two nights a month. Why can not people commit to anything? We couldnt go due to the lack of people. These people look forward to us comming and I just feel so upset because some of these people have absloutely nothing, no friends or family.
I would also like to mention that two weeks ago I was talking to a man who was staying at one of the houses, he was unemployed, no friends or family, and was given two weeks to live (he had cancer in his lungs that spread). I cannot help but think about him, we spoke for only a few minuets, but I felt like I new him. It saddens me to think how someone can have compeletly nothing, and on the verge of dying. I spend last night crying just thinking about it, I have been so fourtunate to be given a great life, and I feel so selfish that I have been reblogging so many photos about wanting to kill myself. I wish I could have told him that I would be thinking of him in his time of need. I hate to think that he died alone. Although I did not know the man for more than fifteen minuets, I felt like he desrved more than what he was handed. No one deserves to be alone.
This post is to rememebr this man, who I am not able to see in his time of need due to the fact that these days everyone is so self-involved and not willing to take some time out of their lives and just help others (I truely apologise to any who are reading this, and actually voluenteer, I admire your work - please do not stop helping). Rest In Peace, I wish I was able to attend last night to see if you are still around, I hope you live your new live in paradise to the fullest. I will not forget out conversation. xx
I would be greatly appriciated for you all to like or reblog this post that to show, in spirit that he was actually cared for, even when it was too late.
Please never forget anyone in your lives, I have realised that life is too short to waste your days hating someone, forgive and forget because in the end you can choose to have everyone by your side in your time off need of no one. I know what I would want.
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Thank you for reading, take care